“nobody wanna see us together…but June 6, 2007

it don’t matter noo….cause i got you
nobody wanna see us but it don’t matter…no
cause wegon’ figh’, wegon’ figh’ for our right…to love…”

this is what i had in mind when i heard some sad stories today…
the lines are so suitable for my cousins stories…

when i was in Frankfurt i had many good news coming from my friends…”wedding news”…many weddings..this summer…and i felt a little…”behind”:)) …but only for a second…

now…a few days ago and today i got sad…got some more news from my cousins…
i don’t know how come, but in my family…i have around…8-10 cousins (of different degrees) among which 5 are guys and are older then me…they used to be my best friends when we were children…and 2 of them got married…their families were not really glad with the girls they got…but they didn’t care..that’s why i sad the lines suit them…

their weddings (1 year ago and 2 years ago) were great and they seemed so happy and it seemed it was going to be “forever”…but now…
…one divorced because his wife was cheating on him while he was making money…also for her to spend…on making herself beautiful…for a…another guy…and there is also a child in between…he is raising him by himself…
…the other one had a love story of 7 years and got married last summer…now he has a one year old child…and him and his wife sleep in separate rooms…and the child is mostly raised by the grandparents…and…she “works in the weekends”:(…

…what i thought first was the fact that my cousins’ families didn’t agree with their choices…i guess their mothers “read” the girls…
…but the second thought was even worse…i am sad that marriages don’t last anymore and the dream of “love forever” starts to loose it’s shape in my mind, it is transforming into fog…and fog is so…something not to trust:(…even though sometimes is really wonderful to walk in the fog to loose yourself, not thinking about the direction in which you are going, not knowing the end of your trip, feeling the moist of it on your face and enjoying every piece of “not seeing”…which sometimes is such a blessing…
…but…i guess the third thought was the worst…what if I might become one of them…either like my cousins….either like their wives:((

maybe these are just some stupid thoughts that came up from some stupid coincidences…but i am still sad…because i don’t want to grow up or how ever you call this…i still want to believe in “love forever”…

i guess…”the show must go on”…is this “the show” nowadays?:(