Entry for June 13, 2007 June 13, 2007

so i guess my last “real blog” was the one about me starting my own business…that goes well…
that was 10 days ago…
the rest doesn’t go that well…i was so “quite” because i feel sad:)…my friends already know that when i am not writing anything there is something wrong…
a normal person would say that there are no reasons for me to be sad…in the last 10 days i learned a lot, i sweared to my teachers because they are teaching organisational change but they have worked in the corporate environment for mostly 3 months, then i was in Pitesti, went out with some friends i haven’t seen for a looong time, and then i visited my grandparents in the countryside and now i am back home…

it is really interesting how many friends i managed to meet since i am here…before coming home i thought 1 month will pass really fast so i made a list of “to do’s ” and “to meet with”…well…those objectives are mooore then accomplished and i still have 2 more weeks…

seeing my grandparents was really nice…and they were really glad to see me…

i tried to catch up on friends relationships…their jobs, their whereabouts…a lot of information…and i consumed a lot of energy just because of alot of speaking…

and now i am trying to gather all the papers for the work permit, but i think i will not get it in time, and i will probably stay here more…

at home is pretty strange also…because my parents are so caring…and i used to live alone for the lat 5 years…and this sudden change is nice for a while, but now it is already too much…so i managed to convince them to let me cook my breakfast and wash the dishes…

i am low on money so travelling is quite restricted…i have 900 euros and i will need around 1000 for Zurich…and all the exams expenses…like going to bucharest and back, were paied by my parents…it sucks…i have been earning my own money since 3 years ago…and now i am…i am not unemploied…i am just in a holiday somehow…but this holiday seems too long…

i still have one more exam but i just don’t feel like learning…i can use my will and start learning right now…but…i don’t feel like doing it…so i won’t do it…

i had my last exam on Monday…so i was in Bucharest…it looked…as it usually looks like…full of dust, hard to breath in the traffic, angry people around…i even saw a girl (25)…she looked really nice…swearing like the last bad raised gangster…to a guy (19) that he parked his car on her parking space…unbeliveble what was getting out of that girl’s mounth!!! for Chris’ sake…she was a woman…but i guess women these days don’t know this notion anymore…and she had no real reason to talk to him like that…unbelieveble…

i noticed i feel like this when i stay at home longer then 2 weeks…so this is my maximum time to endure without a change….i need a major change each 2 weeks to keep my mood up…and i need a job…when my brain is not used just feels like thinking about strange stuff and that is not good…so i guess i will never take more then 2 weeks holiday again…so no honey moon…just a honey fortnight:))..ok…my smile is back…i will end here…i will tell you more later…about women…cause i have some interesting observations….

and…guess what…i feel so much better now…and i also got a surprise…i told you earlier i don’t feel like learning…well…i just got the exam questions on my email…see? why use my will to force myself to learn all that shit when i got the subjects and i can learn only a part of the shit….(i say shit because a “filosofy” graduate is teaching us about organisational culture…and cultural differences…after working for a few months in a company in Bucharest…what does she know about organisational culture from working in a SME? and how can she talk about cultural differences in Germany when she has never been there?…amazing people in this amazing country….

night night!