living life peacefuly but to the max September 9, 2007

 

that’s what i am doing now…

i can say i got used with staying in Zurich…2 months have passed and i can say that…
it is a nice city…a family city…is so much different than Frankfurt – the yuppies city:)…

but i am living life to the max…in the meaning that i am happy…and i don’t care too much about stuff…i finally managed to relax…literaly…it took me hmmm i am 24 and i was a “pushie”, ambitions, “want-it-all-now” girl since i was 7 years old…at least this is the way i remember it…

well…now i am relaxed…Jesus this is so good…no stress for the money (i don’t have too much but i don’t wish i had more…and this means a lot for me), no stress for exams (my masters exams are in one week, if i don’t pass them it means i made a trip to Romania and spend 1000 euros and still failed 1 year) – no…wrong…it means i will repeat the year…so what, where is the fire?, it means i invested 1000 euros in seeing my family and my friends whom i love so much and miss so much, it means i get to see my country and it means i will be a student one year more…how many people don’t wish they were students again?…see..it is possible to see things in pink…it is an art…it is a skill and it takes so much to learn it…

so what if i am alone right now, i have a boy:) he loves me so much and i love him extremely much too…he is not here, but if i get really desperate, i can just pack my begs, resign…stop doing change management in the company and do some change management in my life…pack my begs, move to his place and start writing bed time stories for kids:)…so what if in December i will not find a job, i can just do change management in my life:)…put dareberries.com on its feet and start doing a change, making a difference…

i want to make a difference and i will start doing that…and i will not wait until i will be 50 and have enough money to do it, like most of the guys on ted.com are doing…i will start sooner…i will…

it is so funny…actually i use “funny” too much…is not funny at all…after 4 years in AIESEC and dreaming about getting “big” and making a difference, now i started to get big and i started to forget about making a difference, and it sucks, because this is not me. this is what i realised a few weeks ago…so i am going to do something about it…i will start making a difference before “getting big”…